7.30.2009
7.27.2009
Godfather'sPizza
Tour in 26 days. I've been home 24 days. Time has been flying. No money for tour and no money for bills. It's no big deal. Haven't felt like writing much lately. Waiting for Gabe to call me so we can eat Godfather's Buffet for the low low price of $3. I have a laundry list of things to get done before tour. Always last minute stuff.
7.20.2009
chipotle 3 times in 2 days
May have a 2nd job at Godfather's which would help me a lot before tour.
Trying to figure some things out right now.
A lot to do and it's real stressful.
Tour in 5 weeks and I can't believe it's already time to leave again.
The fuck.
The fuck.
Trying to figure some things out right now.
A lot to do and it's real stressful.
Tour in 5 weeks and I can't believe it's already time to leave again.
The fuck.
The fuck.
7.18.2009
7.15.2009
Eh
Today wasn't all bad. I finally got to sleep in a little which was nice. I woke up and had a lot on my mind so I took a nice walk around my neighborhood. Then Gabe called me up and we went to eat free Hong Kong Cafe. Then plan was to then go swim at a public pool but I remembered my 4 free passes to Coco Key Water Resort so I took those babies and hit the water slides hard. After that I lounged around at home for a few hours, worked on tour, made a flier, played guitar, all of that jazz. Finally came to the manor for some grand theft auto 4, treats from QT and now endless internet surfing. Things aren't really bad today but they're not great. Have to wake up at 8:00am for work and I am not looking forward to that. All I can do at work is sit and think about things bothering me in life.
Staying at my parents this weekend to watch my dog while they're out of town. Punch show Friday in Lincoln. Linoma Saturday with my family, my love and my loves little girl. Things aren't bad, I just have to stop getting down. Don't have ANY money to go on tour next month but it's whatever. May just have to move in with my parents for a few months when I get home. Don't want to but I'm gonna do what I have to. Not looking forward to starting my work week.
Staying at my parents this weekend to watch my dog while they're out of town. Punch show Friday in Lincoln. Linoma Saturday with my family, my love and my loves little girl. Things aren't bad, I just have to stop getting down. Don't have ANY money to go on tour next month but it's whatever. May just have to move in with my parents for a few months when I get home. Don't want to but I'm gonna do what I have to. Not looking forward to starting my work week.
Home
Adjusting back to life not on tour is always really weird for me. The first week or two I am back home just feels really foreign and I never feel like I belong. Then I get re adjusted and leave a few months later. But, when I got home this time I was thrown into the countdown to leave again. Everything feels surreal I guess would be the best way to describe it. All of this time at home feels like a dream or something. That's not really a positive or negative statement. It's just weird to get thrown back into the life I had before I left and it seems like I was never gone. Maybe tour feels like a dream and not my life here in Omaha? It's hard to tell anymore.
I've been going on tour regularly for the past 3 years and it's been great but I feel more and more disconnected from my friends and family every time I leave. It seems like the more I leave the more I turn into less of a friend or less of a son, brother, cousin, etc. It's probably my fault. I'm sure people see it as me leaving them. Maybe I'm just being selfish and I just expect a bigger welcome when I get home? The first few times I left and came back it was always a big deal now it's just what I do so no one really makes a fuss anymore? Maybe I just need to grow up and get over myself. I can't tell. I always have really wild thought patterns late at night.
I feel so far away from everyone I know. I'm becoming less and less social and I don't know why. I can feel it happening and it seems like I can't stop it. I feel like when I leave and come back I'm just toying with people and it seems like they're starting to feel the same way. I haven't gotten much sleep since I've been home. Going to bed late and waking up around 8:00am everyday, it's really starting to grind me down. I've felt so unproductive lately. Basically I need a vacation after my "vacation."
Tour is great, don't get me wrong. But it's no vacation. It's actual work. Waking up early, driving ridiculous distances everyday, loading and unloading, playing shows. It's a tiring thing to put yourself through everyday for a month. Then you get home and are tossed back into work and other responsibilities and people don't understand how you can be worn down. "You were just on vacation" they tell me, not knowing the amount of work I put into tour. It all starts months before I leave. Then I get home and just start booking another one. I can't stop, I love tour, I love punk rock music. I'll be doing this for years to come.
I've been going on tour regularly for the past 3 years and it's been great but I feel more and more disconnected from my friends and family every time I leave. It seems like the more I leave the more I turn into less of a friend or less of a son, brother, cousin, etc. It's probably my fault. I'm sure people see it as me leaving them. Maybe I'm just being selfish and I just expect a bigger welcome when I get home? The first few times I left and came back it was always a big deal now it's just what I do so no one really makes a fuss anymore? Maybe I just need to grow up and get over myself. I can't tell. I always have really wild thought patterns late at night.
I feel so far away from everyone I know. I'm becoming less and less social and I don't know why. I can feel it happening and it seems like I can't stop it. I feel like when I leave and come back I'm just toying with people and it seems like they're starting to feel the same way. I haven't gotten much sleep since I've been home. Going to bed late and waking up around 8:00am everyday, it's really starting to grind me down. I've felt so unproductive lately. Basically I need a vacation after my "vacation."
Tour is great, don't get me wrong. But it's no vacation. It's actual work. Waking up early, driving ridiculous distances everyday, loading and unloading, playing shows. It's a tiring thing to put yourself through everyday for a month. Then you get home and are tossed back into work and other responsibilities and people don't understand how you can be worn down. "You were just on vacation" they tell me, not knowing the amount of work I put into tour. It all starts months before I leave. Then I get home and just start booking another one. I can't stop, I love tour, I love punk rock music. I'll be doing this for years to come.
7.07.2009
Post # 50
Home from the get high or die tour. It was a great fucking time! Sold out of the first pressing of Moon Riders. Getting a 2nd press made soon. Went back to work Monday and got sick as fuck, but my beautiful girlfriend Kailey nursed me back to health yesterday and I'm feeling almost back to normal for the first time since I left. Just added another tour for Hercules this year. 2 or 3 weeks total. Hitting the west coast then 5 shows on 3 different islands in Hawaii then tour home. A total of 3 and a half months of touring this year, it's awesome! Also we're working on new songs right now for a future 7" and a song for a compilation our friends in Old Habits Die Hard who run Puna Punk Records in Puna, Hawaii are putting out this year.
Really busy right now. Writing, recording, tour, home, release a 7" then tour again. Aaron and Danny may be staying in Hawaii when we go in November until April or so. That will give us a long break which may be nice after a busy year, but I'll miss touring so much for that 6 months they're gone. We'll pick it right back up when they get home, if they do stay in Hawaii that is. If not I'm sure we'll go on tour early next year again.
I hope to keep this better updated on tour in August but no promises. It's hard when you have no computer to keep a blog updated. I am considering getting a twitter as well for those quick updates then can elaborate on them all when I can get to a computer. Yeah, that sounds like a good idea!
Time for bed. It's only 11:40 but I'm sure I have about an hour on the phone with Kailey then an hour and a half watching a movie then I have to wake up at 8:00am for work. Time to get into my bed, sleep will come in 2 and a half to 3 hours. I used a lot of numbers in this post. 50th post, by the way (if the title didn't already give that away)
Really busy right now. Writing, recording, tour, home, release a 7" then tour again. Aaron and Danny may be staying in Hawaii when we go in November until April or so. That will give us a long break which may be nice after a busy year, but I'll miss touring so much for that 6 months they're gone. We'll pick it right back up when they get home, if they do stay in Hawaii that is. If not I'm sure we'll go on tour early next year again.
I hope to keep this better updated on tour in August but no promises. It's hard when you have no computer to keep a blog updated. I am considering getting a twitter as well for those quick updates then can elaborate on them all when I can get to a computer. Yeah, that sounds like a good idea!
Time for bed. It's only 11:40 but I'm sure I have about an hour on the phone with Kailey then an hour and a half watching a movie then I have to wake up at 8:00am for work. Time to get into my bed, sleep will come in 2 and a half to 3 hours. I used a lot of numbers in this post. 50th post, by the way (if the title didn't already give that away)
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